When I first gave birth to my son I was so scared and so alone. I was 19 yrs. old with no college degree and the baby’s father decided to leave.
I lost all my friends because I didn’t have the freedom to pick up and leave whenever I wanted to. I also felt what 19 yr olds were doing was what I shouldn’t be doing because I was a mom now. By having great role models as parents, I thought “..there is no way I’m going do as good a job as they did.” I really didn’t know what I was going to do or where I was going to go. The future looked very bleak.
One morning at 6:00 AM I was awoken by my hungry, crying child. I was so tired. I had just been up at midnight and 3:00 AM feeding him.
I had to be at work at 8:00 and have myself and the baby out the door by 7:00 so I could get him to daycare.
I was sitting there feeding my sweet baby, thinking “How am I going to do this?” “He is only a month old and I am already exhausted.”
I felt a wave of guilt come over me. I was thinking my child deserved better. I just wanted to give up. It was dark outside and I felt despair inside.
And then, I looked up out into a huge bay window and saw the sun rising behind the trees. At that moment I said to myself “You can do this!”
Out of darkness there is light and that light is hope.
I always thought it was a sign from God.
Lynn–Farmington Hills, MI
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